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THE INSTANT SUNDAY TIMES BESTSELLER

‘Brutally honest as well as poetic’ DOLLY ALDERTON
‘Necessary, urgent and totally original’ AFUA HIRSCH
‘Intimately life-affirming . . . tackles enormously complex questions’ CALEB FEMI

Someone once asked me how I’d want to be remembered.
I said, ‘As the boy who grew.’

Diagnosed with ADHD as a child, Jordan Stephens found his teens and twenties to be a whirl of career success and nurturing friendships but also a brutal pattern of self-harm, hedonism, destructive coping mechanisms and heartbreak. When he tried to live up to his own damaged expectations and his world exploded, he allowed himself to explore the pain he’d repressed his entire life.

Unsparingly digging into the fear, tenderness and trauma, Jordan Stephens discovers what it means to be a modern man and how the price we pay for love, in all its forms, is worth it.

Publisher Review

Necessary, urgent and totally original — AFUA HIRSCH Brutally honest as well as poetic — DOLLY ALDERTON * * Guardian * * Intimately life-affirming . . . tackles enormously complex questions — CALEB FEMI Deeply personal * * Observer * * Raw, funny, honest and neurodiverting — MATT HAIG Energetic and unguarded — COLIN GRANT * * Guardian, Book of the Day * * Funny, shocking and downright fucked-up at times, it’s like Jordan crawled into my brain and took notes. If you’ve ever had to overcome something in your life, this book is a must-read. Seriously, don’t miss it! — ASHLEY WALTERS Impressively candid . . . A compelling insight into what it is like to be both an artist, and a heterosexual male, in the twenty-first century * * i * * Beautifully written, lyrical, visceral, staccato, cathartic. Feels like late night deep chats and confessions with an old friend. I loved it — JESSIE MEI LI Jordan Stephens shares his life as a kaleidoscope adventure in full ADHD colour with immaculately told stories. What a glorious book, and what a journey — KAT BROWN